Day 5 30 Days of Truth

Day 05 Something you hope to do in your life.

This is something that I could write about for along time. There are so many things that I hope to do in my life, but if you've read any of my previous posts, lack of motivation is my biggest fault.

The biggest thing I hope to do in my life at this moment, is become a mother. I claim my husband's son as my own and I'm very happy to have him in my life, but I long to have my own child. When I was younger, I would hear of that old biological clock ticking and now that I'm *gasp* 31 years old and childless, I can hear and feel that clock pounding in every core of my being. Everywhere I look I see babies and all that encompasses them and my stomach flip flops. I often feel guilty at my inner bitterness when I see a mother or father holding their big cheeked baby. I truly hope that having a child is in my future.

Something I hope to do in my life is go on a real family vacation with Richard and Jake. I would love to win a trip to Disney world or something like that. I hope to accomplish this before Jake gets too old.

I want to write a novel. I have so many half ideas and storylines. I think if I put in some honest effort, I could spin one of those into something decently readable.

I want to travel! Of course, it's been many years since I've been on a plane, but I want to visit Italy and Ireland. Actually, I would probably go anywhere, just to go.

I hope to continue working on my education. Of course this requires deciding what I want to be when I grow up, but that's a very difficult decision. I'm much like a 5 year old that changes her mind constantly! There's so much that I want to do that I feel a little antsy when I try to focus in on one thing.

I think I'll stop there. I could go on and on, literally.

What are you hoping to do in your life?