Day 06 Something you hope never to have to do.
Hmm well, as much as I hate the bad things that happen to me, it's probably those things that give me my winning personality. Actually, that's a load of crap. That's what people tell themselves after bad things have happened. Oh it will make you stronger, oh look how much easier it is to appreciate the good things in life. Honestly? I'd be perfectly happy to appreciate the good things without having to hike through the garbage.
Uh guess I went off subject a little there, but back to the topic at hand. My very first answer was I hope to never have to bury a child. Then I after I thought about it a little longer, I've come up with a few more things I hope to never have to do.
Cut off my foot to escape shackles.
Eat fried okra. The smell of it alone turns my stomach.
Be thrown from an airplane.
Have to pop someone else's zit. I know some people are picky/poppy people, but you can count me off that list.
I'm sure there are tons of other things that I hope to never have to do, but as 30 Days of Truth has helped me realize...I have no motivation to figure them all out. *wink*
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Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Day 5 30 Days of Truth
Day 05 Something you hope to do in your life.
This is something that I could write about for along time. There are so many things that I hope to do in my life, but if you've read any of my previous posts, lack of motivation is my biggest fault.
The biggest thing I hope to do in my life at this moment, is become a mother. I claim my husband's son as my own and I'm very happy to have him in my life, but I long to have my own child. When I was younger, I would hear of that old biological clock ticking and now that I'm *gasp* 31 years old and childless, I can hear and feel that clock pounding in every core of my being. Everywhere I look I see babies and all that encompasses them and my stomach flip flops. I often feel guilty at my inner bitterness when I see a mother or father holding their big cheeked baby. I truly hope that having a child is in my future.
Something I hope to do in my life is go on a real family vacation with Richard and Jake. I would love to win a trip to Disney world or something like that. I hope to accomplish this before Jake gets too old.
I want to write a novel. I have so many half ideas and storylines. I think if I put in some honest effort, I could spin one of those into something decently readable.
I want to travel! Of course, it's been many years since I've been on a plane, but I want to visit Italy and Ireland. Actually, I would probably go anywhere, just to go.
I hope to continue working on my education. Of course this requires deciding what I want to be when I grow up, but that's a very difficult decision. I'm much like a 5 year old that changes her mind constantly! There's so much that I want to do that I feel a little antsy when I try to focus in on one thing.
I think I'll stop there. I could go on and on, literally.
What are you hoping to do in your life?
This is something that I could write about for along time. There are so many things that I hope to do in my life, but if you've read any of my previous posts, lack of motivation is my biggest fault.
The biggest thing I hope to do in my life at this moment, is become a mother. I claim my husband's son as my own and I'm very happy to have him in my life, but I long to have my own child. When I was younger, I would hear of that old biological clock ticking and now that I'm *gasp* 31 years old and childless, I can hear and feel that clock pounding in every core of my being. Everywhere I look I see babies and all that encompasses them and my stomach flip flops. I often feel guilty at my inner bitterness when I see a mother or father holding their big cheeked baby. I truly hope that having a child is in my future.
Something I hope to do in my life is go on a real family vacation with Richard and Jake. I would love to win a trip to Disney world or something like that. I hope to accomplish this before Jake gets too old.
I want to write a novel. I have so many half ideas and storylines. I think if I put in some honest effort, I could spin one of those into something decently readable.
I want to travel! Of course, it's been many years since I've been on a plane, but I want to visit Italy and Ireland. Actually, I would probably go anywhere, just to go.
I hope to continue working on my education. Of course this requires deciding what I want to be when I grow up, but that's a very difficult decision. I'm much like a 5 year old that changes her mind constantly! There's so much that I want to do that I feel a little antsy when I try to focus in on one thing.
I think I'll stop there. I could go on and on, literally.
What are you hoping to do in your life?
Day 4 30 Days of Truth
Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for.
I'm generally very quick to forgive most things. I hate to have tension between people especially people that are close to me. I'm like a firecracker when it comes to fights, there's a spark, a lot of noise, and it fizzles out fast. I can get very heated when something bothers me, but it fades just as fast.
I searched my brain trying to find something or someone that I've yet to forgive and honestly it's difficult to come up with anything. The one thing that I can come up with, is that my "Father" basically dropped out of my life when I was about 15 and has had little contact with me since. But, I have such a wonderful step-father and I actually hate to call him that because to me he's just Dad, that it's hard to complain. I do get a little bitter when I think of my biological as I'm his firstborn and he makes no effort. I suppose that's something that I need to forgive and move on.
I'm generally very quick to forgive most things. I hate to have tension between people especially people that are close to me. I'm like a firecracker when it comes to fights, there's a spark, a lot of noise, and it fizzles out fast. I can get very heated when something bothers me, but it fades just as fast.
I searched my brain trying to find something or someone that I've yet to forgive and honestly it's difficult to come up with anything. The one thing that I can come up with, is that my "Father" basically dropped out of my life when I was about 15 and has had little contact with me since. But, I have such a wonderful step-father and I actually hate to call him that because to me he's just Dad, that it's hard to complain. I do get a little bitter when I think of my biological as I'm his firstborn and he makes no effort. I suppose that's something that I need to forgive and move on.
Day 3 30 Days of Truth
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
"Forgiveness. It's more than saying sorry. I'm sorry. To forgive is divine, so let's have a glass of wine and have make-up sex 'til the end of time..." Quote courtesy of Anna Faris in Just Friends.
There are probably many things that I should learn to forgive myself for, but there is one that I carry with me and am often reminded of. My brother and sister recently turned 21, they are a little less than eleven years younger than me.
I moved out of the house when I was 17, they were around 6 years old. I wanted to get out and do my own thing. I visited them often, babysat even, but I feel like I missed a lot of them growing up. Right around then is when our family had a lot of rough things going on and I should have been there more for them. I should have protected them from the situations they had to go through. They moved around alot and went through some really hard times. When they moved about two hours away, our visits were fewer and far between.
When they were 12, they moved back here and I put a lot of effort into being a part of their lives. My sister is truly my best friend. We talk almost everyday and spend time together watching movies or trying out new recipes, generally hanging out once a week. While this makes me extremely happy, it also makes me feel a bit guilty as my relationship with my brother is less close. There have been circumstances that have made it difficult for us to maintain our relationship, but I'm putting effort into returning it to what it once was.
I need to forgive myself for being away from them. They have turned into fantastic people that I'm happy to know and love.
"Forgiveness. It's more than saying sorry. I'm sorry. To forgive is divine, so let's have a glass of wine and have make-up sex 'til the end of time..." Quote courtesy of Anna Faris in Just Friends.
There are probably many things that I should learn to forgive myself for, but there is one that I carry with me and am often reminded of. My brother and sister recently turned 21, they are a little less than eleven years younger than me.
I moved out of the house when I was 17, they were around 6 years old. I wanted to get out and do my own thing. I visited them often, babysat even, but I feel like I missed a lot of them growing up. Right around then is when our family had a lot of rough things going on and I should have been there more for them. I should have protected them from the situations they had to go through. They moved around alot and went through some really hard times. When they moved about two hours away, our visits were fewer and far between.
When they were 12, they moved back here and I put a lot of effort into being a part of their lives. My sister is truly my best friend. We talk almost everyday and spend time together watching movies or trying out new recipes, generally hanging out once a week. While this makes me extremely happy, it also makes me feel a bit guilty as my relationship with my brother is less close. There have been circumstances that have made it difficult for us to maintain our relationship, but I'm putting effort into returning it to what it once was.
I need to forgive myself for being away from them. They have turned into fantastic people that I'm happy to know and love.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Day 2 30 Days of Truth
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself
Surprisingly, this one was easy. I love my loyalty. I'm fiercely loyal to my family and those I love. I'm the first person banging down the door of those that insulted them, took advantage of them, made them feel stupid, or hurt them in anyway.
My motto has always been "I can mess with my family, but nobody else can."
My family and loved ones know that they can call on me at any time when they need me and I'll be there for them. I'll change a tire, help them fix their computer, bake them a cake, tell someone off, or join in on their latest rant.
I may tell someone they're a dumbass if the occasion warrants it, but I offer my assistance anyway.
What do you love about yourself?
Surprisingly, this one was easy. I love my loyalty. I'm fiercely loyal to my family and those I love. I'm the first person banging down the door of those that insulted them, took advantage of them, made them feel stupid, or hurt them in anyway.
My motto has always been "I can mess with my family, but nobody else can."
My family and loved ones know that they can call on me at any time when they need me and I'll be there for them. I'll change a tire, help them fix their computer, bake them a cake, tell someone off, or join in on their latest rant.
I may tell someone they're a dumbass if the occasion warrants it, but I offer my assistance anyway.
What do you love about yourself?
Day 1 30 Days of Truth
Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Ah, something I hate about myself. My first reaction was...everything. The easier question would be, what do I like about myself. But in all actuality, there is little that I actually hate in the world at all. Hate is an extremely powerful word as it requires a lot of effort. There are things that I strongly dislike, but little that I would say I put the time and energy into actually hating. Is that lazy? Perhaps.
So as far as something that I strongly dislike about myself? There are a few things that pop into mind. I would say the biggest one that bothers me, is my lack of motivation. I fancy myself a very creative and imaginative person with big dreams and high hopes, however I have no follow through. I have lofty goals, but fall behind when it comes to actually putting something together.
This is something that I struggle with in all aspects of my life. Weight being the first and foremost with all the New Year's Resolutions breathing down our necks. I shy away from setting resolutions, because they seem like a set up to failure.
Oh, I just thought of something I actually do hate about myself. I have OCD. It causes most of my frustration and self-loathing. But that's a whole long post and I have no motivation (get it? haha) to write about it.
So what do you hate about yourself? Are you working on changing it?
Ah, something I hate about myself. My first reaction was...everything. The easier question would be, what do I like about myself. But in all actuality, there is little that I actually hate in the world at all. Hate is an extremely powerful word as it requires a lot of effort. There are things that I strongly dislike, but little that I would say I put the time and energy into actually hating. Is that lazy? Perhaps.
So as far as something that I strongly dislike about myself? There are a few things that pop into mind. I would say the biggest one that bothers me, is my lack of motivation. I fancy myself a very creative and imaginative person with big dreams and high hopes, however I have no follow through. I have lofty goals, but fall behind when it comes to actually putting something together.
This is something that I struggle with in all aspects of my life. Weight being the first and foremost with all the New Year's Resolutions breathing down our necks. I shy away from setting resolutions, because they seem like a set up to failure.
Oh, I just thought of something I actually do hate about myself. I have OCD. It causes most of my frustration and self-loathing. But that's a whole long post and I have no motivation (get it? haha) to write about it.
So what do you hate about yourself? Are you working on changing it?
30 Days of Truth
I read an email from Biz Mommy about a posting challenge of sorts called 30 Days of Truth. She joined up with the blog With Just a Bit of Magic to post once per day, each day having it's own question or topic to write about.
I think this is a great idea to help me discover my blog writing style and to learn some interesting things about other bloggers and myself. I'm starting a few days late so I'll be catching up today. I make no promises to actually do this in 30 days, but by the end of it, it will be 30 days worth of truth.
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